Sometimes I wonder how can I feel so alone, I have my husband and my baby girl and plenty of friends I just don't get it. But It probably has alot to do with my husband working 9 and a half hrs a day and most times my friends are busy with their own lives so im left with my baby girl.
I's so hard too that i don't have my licence, I feel so mad at myself for not getting it before madeline was born, I wanted to but just kept procrastinating. It upsets me ,not just that I can't go and meet friends for coffee but I also can't take my little girl to the park or the beach or just to spend time with other babies it makes me feel so bad, sometimes I feel like i'm a really bad mother. I do make up for it though well I try, I spend time playing with her and reading to her which she loves.
I am now determined to go get my licence I really need to do this for madeline, and so that I don't feel so alone.
Not sure what to say as this is my first post, so I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Tammy, I am 27 years old. I got married in september 2007 to my gorgeous man josh and 5 months ago we welcomed our first child into the world, we named her Madeline Isabella. Madeline was a name that we both agreed on straight away, and Isabella was my sister in law melissa's fav girls name that we also loved so it was settled. Madeline is just starting solids and is also trying so hard to crawl, she is a very determined little trouble maker. Josh and I sometimes cannot believe how lucky we are to have each other and our beautiful little girl. 3 years ago I never would have thought I could be this happy, I thought I was going to be alone till I was 50. Well anyway it all worked out for us. So anyway alot these posts will probably be about my josh and maddy, hopefully not too boring though.
