Sometimes I wonder how can I feel so alone, I have my husband and my baby girl and plenty of friends I just don't get it. But It probably has alot to do with my husband working 9 and a half hrs a day and most times my friends are busy with their own lives so im left with my baby girl.

I's so hard too that i don't have my licence, I feel so mad at myself for not getting it before madeline was born, I wanted to but just kept procrastinating. It upsets me ,not just that I can't go and meet friends for coffee but I also can't take my little girl to the park or the beach or just to spend time with other babies it makes me feel so bad, sometimes I feel like i'm a really bad mother. I do make up for it though well I try, I spend time playing with her and reading to her which she loves.

I am now determined to go get my licence I really need to do this for madeline, and so that I don't feel so alone.